Monday, September 6, 2010

What a Weekend

Yep, just what you all need to hear about another of my crying episodes...but once I get it written it doesn't bother me as much anymore. It not that I am an unhappy person but man can I now hit some lows. However, I will say that our time on the ocean is always the most peaceful times I have now. Hearing the waves hit the beach is like listening to Natalia's laugh. There is nothing better then all four of us together.

Edgar left home last Monday for a gang conference in gorgeous San Diego...at a hotel right on Mission Bay...across the street from Mission Beach. So we decided that Sophia & I would join him for the weekend and have a major relaxing time. Nothing but chilling and the bay, beach and pool. Yep, no Seaworld, no world famous zoo, just sun, surf and relaxation.

Let me first say that if we do something like this again, it will be before his conference begins. Edgar does not like to be away from home for long. He was tired and had a major case of "I just want to go home" by the time we arrived Friday afternoon. That is not to say we didn't have a good time. We played in the Bay Friday afternoon and went to a Luau that night. What a blast! Sophia had so much fun and even got up on the stage with the dancers for a kiddie hula. We spent Saturday playing with Natalia in the ocean. Sunday morning was pool time and the afternoon walking on the beach with Natalia. Sophia wrote messages to her sissy in the sand for the tide to carry out to Natalia. The weekend had some beautiful times.

Now for the not so great moments. Some of you may know, Edgar and I decided to try for another baby at the end of June. We expected it to take many months so when I turned up pregnant by the end of July we were ecstatic! We didn't tell very many people because we wanted the first "major" OB appointment before yelling the news to the world. That appointment was last Tuesday and the news was not good. The yolk was way too big for the baby to survive the first trimester. That didn't mean we gave up hope but talk about a frying pan upside the head. I started bleeding on Friday afternoon and by Saturday morning I couldn't feel that little life force anymore. I think they wanted to join their sister by the sea. They showed us just how much we do want another child and we will try again once my body is ready...40 year old body that it is.

Less distressing but more frustrating because of the first...I lost my bestest most fav sunglasses Friday night. It was just one more thing and I think that's why I took it harder and out of proportion. But it was like "you have to be kidding me".

Sunday before sunrise...Edgar retrieves a message from his phone. Redd is running the neighborhood. They can't catch him! I call my dad at 6:30am to check the house and see if he can get Redd to jump in the car with him. Redd loves to go for a ride. Guess what, Redd is in the backyard...the neighbors caught him and fixed the fence...but Coco was not there. She had knocked and slat loose and escaped. Dad searched the area with no luck. He went back to search and talk to everyone after Mom got back from church...No Coco. Edgar and I facebooked asking if anyone had seen her. We were heartbroken! We had just lost a baby now Coco was gone, oh yeah, doom and gloom time as we sat at San Diego airport and there was nothing we could do. My Mom called at 3pm...Coco was found...at the Petsmart on Willow/Herndon. She was wandering the parking lot up there and some kind soul brought her over to the people that adopt pets out in front on the weekends. P.A.W.S. Precious Animals Worth Saving...no kill shelter. They took her inside and bathed her, deflead her and had her microchip read. When they couldn't reach anyone at our house they called my parents. Thank God! It was like having a fifty pound weight taken off out chests. Now we just needed to get home and hug the dogs. Needless to say, today Edgar is going to be re enforcing the fence.

Much love to you all,
Roni

2 comments:

Lauren Marie said...

Roni, no one thinks you're an unhappy person! I, for one, admire your strength and resilience. You just suffered the loss of another child, and while I could never even *try* to imagine how that feels, I know it's incredibly difficult and heartbreaking. I also know that your strength, resilience and faith will get you thru it and when the time comes, the new baby that you will bring into the world will be very blessed to be born into such an amazingly strong family. Keep your head up ... My prayers are with you! xoxox

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